Feeling proud.

I just got back from my friends with C (again). T'was very funny (again). Although no hair dying happened :(, makes it terrible! But I've now decided I need some life goals. So here they are...

1. Do absolutely amazing in the exams this week.
2. Find someone absolutely amazing whom any sexual acts with would not be classed as pedophilia.
3. Get a kiss of C (just because)
4. Keep caught up on sleep
5. Catch up on homework/ coursework
6. Keep caught up on homework/ coursework
7. Become slightly less bitchy
8. Choose normal times to leave my house
9. Become less of a flirt
10. Stop caring quite so much and setting myself aims that are unachievable without the motivation I blatantly lack :D

ALEEEEEEERRRRRRT.

THIS WAS WRITTEN YESTERDAY BUT NOT POSTED AS I FELL ASLEEP FOR REASONS YOU ARE ABOUT TO SYMPATHIZE WITH.

Hmmm....it appears we have a new guy on the scene. Probably won't last long. There is an age gap :(. C. He is good looking, and such a lovely person, but he's 18...(don't judge he's no pedo)

I've not mentioned him because I figured when I meet up with him we'll be JUST friends with no hope of anything more. We have been talking for quite a while. I think I was wrong,

Basically I had one of the best mornings of my life today. We had joked around that he was going to come and get me for a mcdonalds. I thought we were joking. I was asleep...then my phone goes off next to my year "I'll be there in about 20 minutes. 

So 2 in the morning and i'm told he's outside. I get in the car....and he's hotter than I remember, don't know how...but he is. And he says we're going to pick up my best friend, which kinda bugged me because she can occasionally just act slutty to avoid being the third wheel, which annoys me. I knew she would. 

So this was possibly the best morning of my life. We get back home after driving quite far away for this McDonalds and my friend says "no one is home, let's eat it at mine" So after sleeping for 3 hours the night before then working all day my intention was to eat then go home and sleep. It seemed like the best thing to do. So after ordering 40 chicken nuggets, this was always going to take a while anyway. But at 4 we tried to convince him to let us dye his hair. He did. He now has purple hair...it was meant to come out brown....I don't even know. Then we went to tesco which wasn't even open....so we went back to my friends. She was doing all she could to try and get involved...didn't work. We were cuddling up for ages watching a film, then she tried to come over.....one word....FAIL. He then was laying on the sofa in the prime spooning position. I decided to be difficult. After about ten minutes I think he gave up and literally just picked me up and put me on my side...Win or what. 

But we did have an awkward moment. It's no secret girls want him, even less of a secret that he's no virgin. But we weren't sure the extent...so we asked...after a while of counting...he's had sex with 27 different girls. 5 of them models. WHAT?! Yeah. Shocked me. He's nice though, just a mega shame about the age gap :(, and the fact I think I have slightly too much to be number whatever I would be by that point.

Basically urghhh

I worked for 8 hours straight today.

I got 3 and a half hours sleep last night.

I am rather hungover and feel physically sick.

This is not good. At all. So yeah I've been slightly flirting with my brothers friend all day....the one from yesterday. That's probably bad...I've been out with one of his best friends before. So i'm tired. But I was forced to make a decision here...late night Mcdonalds or no Mcdonalds at all...I CHOOSE LATE NIGHT. So basically I'm getting close to C...my best friend has a thing for him. This is bad. He's lovely. He is really complimenting...he's smart...he can drive...yeah he's 18. That's a 3 year age gap. I was talking to my sister about it, she goes "no it's not big but it is when one is legal and one isn't."...but he is lovely. And he's got a family party tonight and is on "taxi duty" taking drunk people home from theirs...and then when he's done he's picking me up and we're going down to the drive-thru. Should be a laugh, we talk non-stop. But I don't want my friend to find out..we both know we should invite her but neither of us want to so we won't...makes me feel bad though, she'll be pretty pissed off if she finds out. Anyone sweet followers..I'm gonna try and have a nap. I feel so tired :(

Damn this

Okay so I've been at a wedding all day. Been drinking since about three. Now I'm slightly tipsy. And I got home and I'm staying at my dads tonight so I went and chilled with my step brother and his mate for a bit. He's only the year above me and his mate is quite hot. To piss my step brother off as a joke we were acting really flirty but then we like fell on my brothers bed now there's this sexual tension which has obviously put me in a sexually frustrated mood and he's literally through the wall
And this is killing me slowly :(

Hahahahahaha

E's best friend really does like making stuff awkward.
Yesterday was the first time he straight up told me he knew. Talking about W's fight and this is the conversation
"haha would you shag him?"
"hell no. God knows what I'd catch"
"haha, crabs? Chlamydia?"
"No idea ;)"
"so how many people you shagged?"
"just one"
"ooo I know who that is ;)"
"I know you do ;)"
"would you again?"
"well we aren't really talking right now,, but I guess if we got that close again"
"oooo just him?"
"well being in a relationship doesn't bother me as long as we're close?"
"oooo so no one else? ;)"
"probably not"
"haha that's a shame ;)"
OK REALLY?! YOUR BEST FRIEND LOST HIS V TO ME KEEP YOUR DICK IN YOUR PANTS I AM NOT GOING TO BANG YOU. Sorry.

The Occurance Of Events.

Okay. so let's start off with the serious stuff. I've been put on serious best friend duty. I told you about the two best friends having sex? Turns out...they used no protection. And he didn't pull out. (sorry for the graphicness)

and now she is extremely stressed. My other friend is making jokes at him. Calling him daddy. But I can tell my friend is worried as hell, I can understand why. I've told her I will go to any doctors or anything when it is time to, there is not a lot else I can do. But God knows how stressed she is right now, I couldn't imagine it. But the males being males...Well one of my other best friends is buying daddy a personalized fathers day card :D

Second bit is I need to learn to keep my mouth shut. I'm gonna get an even worse reputation and this isn't even true. Mummy was tweeting stuff about something I know. A serial cheat, like seriously, there is a rather long list of people he's cheated on...has cheated on his girlfriend again. With my best friend. And I told mummy, because we do tell each other everything, as bad as it sounds that I did. But she tweeted about it, and the girlfriend saw it and started asking her about it...so she said it was someone with a girlfriend and me...IT'S NOT EVEN TRUE! But I guess it's worth it, I'm not getting involved in this messed up little relationship again.

Also. I saw W on the way home from school. First time since he was round mine last. Gave me a cheeky grin....which reallllly shouldn't still make me swoon a little bit. Anyway, I was about to confront him about sending the pictures to Awkward, then he kinda snapped and was like "i'm really not in the mood"...and when asked why he said he had just been in a fight with some kid, who to be honest I don't really know about their relationship, but I do know that E is in his profile picture. Let's 'ave a nice bit o' awkwardness eh?

LASTLY ON A LIGHTER BUT MORE SADDENING NOTE I HAVE MY GLASSES AND THEY LOOK HORRENDOUS. SEE FOR YOURSELF.

...

So i've decided I kinda want to go out for a late night run tonight. I will do. Need to clear my head.

But I have an issue. I'm currently home alone, don't know when my sister is in...I worry that that might be the one thing keeping me from asking W over. But I won't. Not gonna let myself get in this situation again. Especially considering people at his school now know about me and E, I am not getting myself an even worse reputation. 

But I think it's bad that that's kinda the only thing stopping me :/

FUCKING SORT MY LIFE OUT PLEASE.