Swoonage

Okay. I have an obsession with fighters. I love masculinity; I find it a huge turn on! It's so attractive...therefore when I see a fighter I find them so hot and I just...yeah I'm obsessed.
C does martial arts. MMA. My obsession.
He turned around earlier because of that and was like "okay next Saturday when I stay over I'm bringing my hoodie and you can have it for a while, just to fuel your UFC obsession"
AH GOD IT'S SO AMAZING.

Hmmm

Okay apparently the friend is now pissed off with me because she feels left out.
She introduced us and now we spend a long time together and she feels left out.
I WONDER WHY.
She has done this to me before for the record. I introduced her to someone and they ended up together...awkkksssss.
And yeah, she wonders why using invite her when everytime I do she's clingy as hell and inconsiderate and just generally a twat.
As harsh as it sounds.

Argh

Okay I'm writing this really subtly as due to the openness and anonymity you've probably guessed none of my friends know about this.
I'm sitting here with C and the slightly slutty friend (slightly?) and she's fucking doing it again.
C came town with me today and we went and got McDonald's after and (yeah I'm fatty) then he came round mine to eat said mcdonalds...then my friend invited herself round. We were talking yesterday and I was like "well I kinda like him but it would never happen and shit"...apparently she took this as her sign to step in. He was round and I tweeted "eating chicken nuggets with purple hair"...5 minutes later she's at my door. Happy being the third wheel she always is.
She then starts doing it again. Being clingy and slutty just to try and get some attention.
I feel mean because she has been there for me through a lot but honestly it's a bit much. When he's cuddling up to me or we're play fighting and shell just suddenly be involved and we're both like "what?"...then he actually starts being closer to her. She's fucking got her way again. Which has annoyed me.
But then when she left the room I was like "you alright?"
And he gave this kind of eyebrow signal look towards her looking really irritated.. Then just said yeah.
So I don't really know what's going on all I know is she is irritating me right now because she can't stand someone else getting any effing attention.

CRINGEEEEEEE.

Ok so obviously my mum doesn't know I am no longer a virgin. But C was round earlier, and she thinks he is 17 (or this conversation could be even worse)..she tried to have the talk with me. She gave me a hug and was like "You do know you can talk to me don't you?" And I was like "i've been cuddling down here with someone older than me I know what's coming..."yeah."...."well I know you're going to want to have a serious boyfriend and seeing you with someone older than you has made me realise how much you're growing up and if you do want to take things more seriously with the next boyfriend we'll go to the doctors yeah and we can get you completely sorted for it?"...CRINGE. I THINK I FEEL SICK.

Okay, anyway, off the cringeyness. I just had such a good night xD. So as I said earlier C came over to help me revise history. We spent all night cuddling up and watching low budget horror films. I hate the age gap. but we even found ourselves talking about it....We were mucking about, and we were talking about at what age it would be acceptable for me and him to kind of be close. I did find out that he was seeing someone though, but then he said he had stopped things with her. So that made me happy. I opened up to him. Like I really did. I told him everything recent, I just told him everything, that's a big deal for me. He left like half an hour ago and gave me a huge hug then left. Everytime he leaves I hope something slightly more will happen, but I know that he's 18 and I'm 15 so it won't. That does make me sad but hey ho it won't change :(. I'll keep you updated on that situation, it was really nice though, really nice to be that close to someone :)

Maturity at its finest.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

We have a new I. Shock shock horror horror. My impeccable taste in males seems to have paid off once again. E has done the one thing that demonstrates the height of maturity. I have been deleted off of facebook....Different? HOW CREATIVE OF YOU YOU MASSIVE BELLEND.

Feeling proud.

I just got back from my friends with C (again). T'was very funny (again). Although no hair dying happened :(, makes it terrible! But I've now decided I need some life goals. So here they are...

1. Do absolutely amazing in the exams this week.
2. Find someone absolutely amazing whom any sexual acts with would not be classed as pedophilia.
3. Get a kiss of C (just because)
4. Keep caught up on sleep
5. Catch up on homework/ coursework
6. Keep caught up on homework/ coursework
7. Become slightly less bitchy
8. Choose normal times to leave my house
9. Become less of a flirt
10. Stop caring quite so much and setting myself aims that are unachievable without the motivation I blatantly lack :D

ALEEEEEEERRRRRRT.

THIS WAS WRITTEN YESTERDAY BUT NOT POSTED AS I FELL ASLEEP FOR REASONS YOU ARE ABOUT TO SYMPATHIZE WITH.

Hmmm....it appears we have a new guy on the scene. Probably won't last long. There is an age gap :(. C. He is good looking, and such a lovely person, but he's 18...(don't judge he's no pedo)

I've not mentioned him because I figured when I meet up with him we'll be JUST friends with no hope of anything more. We have been talking for quite a while. I think I was wrong,

Basically I had one of the best mornings of my life today. We had joked around that he was going to come and get me for a mcdonalds. I thought we were joking. I was asleep...then my phone goes off next to my year "I'll be there in about 20 minutes. 

So 2 in the morning and i'm told he's outside. I get in the car....and he's hotter than I remember, don't know how...but he is. And he says we're going to pick up my best friend, which kinda bugged me because she can occasionally just act slutty to avoid being the third wheel, which annoys me. I knew she would. 

So this was possibly the best morning of my life. We get back home after driving quite far away for this McDonalds and my friend says "no one is home, let's eat it at mine" So after sleeping for 3 hours the night before then working all day my intention was to eat then go home and sleep. It seemed like the best thing to do. So after ordering 40 chicken nuggets, this was always going to take a while anyway. But at 4 we tried to convince him to let us dye his hair. He did. He now has purple hair...it was meant to come out brown....I don't even know. Then we went to tesco which wasn't even open....so we went back to my friends. She was doing all she could to try and get involved...didn't work. We were cuddling up for ages watching a film, then she tried to come over.....one word....FAIL. He then was laying on the sofa in the prime spooning position. I decided to be difficult. After about ten minutes I think he gave up and literally just picked me up and put me on my side...Win or what. 

But we did have an awkward moment. It's no secret girls want him, even less of a secret that he's no virgin. But we weren't sure the extent...so we asked...after a while of counting...he's had sex with 27 different girls. 5 of them models. WHAT?! Yeah. Shocked me. He's nice though, just a mega shame about the age gap :(, and the fact I think I have slightly too much to be number whatever I would be by that point.